Current Favourite Television Shows

Every evening if I'm not doing anything, I'll be sitting with my mum in the living room watching one of the many tv shows I've discovered while being off from work and school. So while being off from work and university hasn't been the most enjoyable time, some of the things that got me through those boredom spells were Television shows. So here are some of my current favourite television shows I've watched of late. Hopefully, there is something in here for all of you.


Television Shows

I'm definitely more of a tv show buff than movies, I think there is something I enjoy about the consistent storytelling that adds complexity to characters and furthering along development and storylines. While there are so many movies that are brilliant, there is more time given to tv shows which is something I prefer. So, here are my current favourite tv shows.


JANE THE VIRGIN
2014-
Comedy/Drama/Romance
7.8/10



You can find seasons 1-3 on Netflix, and you can watch the trailer here

A young, devout Catholic woman discovers that she was accidentally artificially inseminated. 
- IMDb

My Thoughts:
Jane the Virgin is absolute perfection, it's not only witty and funny but can be incredibly relatable. While the show's premise is completely ridiculous and over the top (although that's what telenovelas are) it can show accurate portrayals of family, love, loss and grief. From murders to telenovela stars, it is simply a must watch.

A Must Watch: 
If you want a show that will make you laugh, and will leave you with suspense and wanting more.

Standout Star:
Gina Rodgruiez won a golden globe for her role on Jane the Virgin, the only golden globe the CW network has ever won for a show on their network.

BATES MOTEL
2013-2017
Horror/Drama/Mystery
8.2/10



You can find seasons 1-4 on Netflix, and you can watch the trailer here

A contemporary prequel to Psycho, giving a portrayal of how Norman Bates' psyche unravels through his teenage years, and how deeply intricate his relationship with his mother, Norma, truly is. - IMDb

My Thoughts:

Warning: This show contains Rape, Murder, Incest and other troubling themes. Please do your own research on the show. If some of these are triggers for you, you may want to skip this one.

Bates Motel is a masterpiece. The characters in this show are so complex and have so many layers to them, I think it would take a few sittings to really try and understand them. Which would be easy, considering how good this show is. It show's Norman Bates not as just a serial killer, but someone who really doesn't quite understand what is going on with him. While saying that, Bates Motel is really fucked up. Like really fucked up. So if you're able to stomach some of the themes of the show, you are in for an absolute treat. A perfect prequel to the timeless work of art that is Psycho, directed by Alfred Hitchcock.

A Must Watch:
If you want a horror/drama series that explores the work of Psycho by Alfred Hitchcock

Standout Star(s):
Vera Farmiga and Freddie Highmore are absolutely fantastic on this show. Their acting skills are unbelievable and they truly do deserve more recognition for it. They are the backbones of this show and they have put everything they have into it.

BROOKLYN NINE-NINE
 2013-
Comedy/Crime
8.3/10



You can find seasons 1-4 on Netflix, and you can watch the trailer here

Jake Peralta, an immature but talented NYPD detective in Brooklyn's 99th Precinct, comes into immediate conflict with his new commanding officer, the serious and stern Captain Ray Holt.
- IMDb

My Thoughts:
This show is a gift that keeps on giving. The actors and actresses not only have incredible comedic timing but also the cast is filled with so much diversity it's refreshing to see. While the show has moments where I'm rolling around with laughter, they also touch issues like racial profiling, homophobia and dodgy police work. Its overall tone is how to be better cops, how to be better people. This show is absolute perfection and you will not be disappointed in watching this.

A Must Watch:
If you want a lighthearted show that will guarantee you hours and hours of laughter.

Standout Star(s):
I can't list one standout without listing them all. All of the cast truly make the essence of this show. If one was missing completely, I don't think it would be the same.

SUITS
2011-
Drama/Comedy
8.6/10



You can find seasons 1-6A on Netflix, and you can watch the trailer here

On the run from a drug deal gone bad, Mike Ross, a brilliant college-dropout, finds himself a job working with Harvey Specter, one of New York City's best lawyers.
- IMDb

My Thoughts:
I just love Suits so much. The storylines, the characters are so witty and creative. I love how fast-paced the show is and how complex some of the storylines are. Not only are the characters intricate, but they are very strong and independent, especially the female characters. While it will be sad to see the departure of Megan Markle leaving the show to become a royal I'm excited to see what the show will bring next. Suits never disappoint.

A Must Watch:
If you like fast-paced drama with hints of comedy and endearing characters you will love and root for.

Standout Star:
Gabriel Macht is wonderful in this show. His delivery and timing are wonderful and I feel as if he is the only person who can play Harvey Specter, he is the soul of the show.

HOW TO GET AWAY WITH MURDER
2014-
Crime/Drama/Mystery
8.2/10



You can find seasons 1-2 on Netflix, and you can watch the trailer here

A group of ambitious law students and their brilliant criminal defence professor become involved in a twisted murder plot that promises to change the course of their lives.
- IMDb

My Thoughts:
This show is genius. The storyline is fast-paced, interesting and keeps you hooked, wanting to know what happened that night that the murder took place. The series is straight to the point and unlike other television shows, it gives you answers every episode instead of leaving until the finale. You will find yourself going back and re-watching, trying to find clues you may have missed before. Watch one episode and you'll be hooked.

A Must Watch:
If you want a constant feeling of "oh my god" and "what the hell just happened?' and if you want satisfying endings for confusing and frustrating storylines, this is the show for you.

Standout Star:
Viola Davis. I don't think there is anything I can say about Viola Davis that even comes close to the justice of describing her incredible acting on this show. Viola Davis and Shonda Rhimes are a match made in heaven.

VERONICA MARS
2004-2007
Crime/Drama/Mystery
8.4/10



You can find the full seasons on Stan, and you can watch the trailer here

After her best friend is murdered, and her father is removed as country Sheriff, Veronica Mars dedicates her life to cracking the toughest mysteries in the affluent town of Neptune. 
- IMDb

Warning: This show has depictions of rape, please keep this in mind before viewing or this may be a show you might want to skip. 

My Thoughts:
Okay, I know I'm late to the Veronica Mars train, but in my defence, I would have only been a child when Veronica Mar's hit our televisions. I doubt little old me would have appreciated it back then the way I do now. Veronica Mars is amazing, from the cases to unfolding the truth of Lily Kane's murder, it's absolutely brilliant. I wish I could make everyone watch this show so they could see for themselves how genius this show is. The movie to follow in 2014 was a great way to end the series conclude the Veronica Mars chapter, but I honestly wish it went on forever.

A Must Watch:
If you like murder-mystery and seeing a strong, independent and badass female lead. This show is still entertaining and interesting now, 13 years later.

Standout Star:
Kristen Bell, oh my god. I am of course quite familiar with Kristen Bells film and tv work but I truly think she shines in this show. This role could only be pulled off by her.

THE GOOD DOCTOR
2017-
Drama
8.5/10



You can watch The Good Doctor on channel 7/plus 7 and you can watch the trailer here

Shawn Murphy, a young surgeon with autism and Savant syndrome, is recruited into a surgical unit of a prestigious hospital. 
- IMDb

My Thoughts:
Freddie Highmore does it again with The Good Doctor. This show is very touching and I've had a lot of moments watching where I've cried and have found myself truly rooting for Shawn and for him to succeed in this field. Even though the first season is still airing, I am absolutely hooked and find myself waiting every week to see what Shawn does next.

A Must Watch:
If you want a show filled with a lot of love and characters you are going to love and adore.

Standout Star:
Freddie Highmore. With every role he has, he completely embodies the character. He is exceptional in this role, and I honestly have no words to really describe his acting. It's something you'll just have to witness for yourself.

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So here you have it! My current favourite tv shows at the moment. Is there anything here you have already seen or anything you now would like to see? let me know what you think through my social media above!

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My Goals For 2018 and What I'm Leaving Behind in 2017

The beginning of a new year is always quite exciting, It's a time where you can re-invent yourself and create goals that you will hopefully try to follow. Where you try to leave the bad behind in the previous year while bringing the good with you into the new year. A new year is a new start, a fresh beginning and something to help you put that bounce back in your step to achieve the things you want to achieve. Here are some of the things I'll be leaving behind in 2017 and my goals for 2018.

WHAT I'M LEAVING BEHIND IN 2017

Doubts In Myself

I will be attempting to leave behind the attitude that I won't be fully healthy and normal. In 2017, I was convinced I would live with severe back pain for the rest of my life, or that it would be years till it was gone. To my surprise, it has completely stopped. I thought I would have to solely rely on walking aids, shower chairs, pain medication, etc to help me live a normal day, but I've been able to stop using/taking all of that and live relatively pain-free.

While I know I have achieved so much in the past year, there is still this voice telling me I'll never get to what I used to be. It's very hard imagining myself being completely healthy and happy, but the more mental blockage I put up, the longer it will take to get to where I need to be. I've proved myself wrong so many times in 2017 and it's time I start approaching things more positively.

For that reason, I'm leaving doubts I have in myself back in 2017

                                      
                                           September 2017 England (main support: crutches)

October 2017 Halloween (no crutches)

   

MY GOALS FOR 2018

University 

This year I will be going back to university to continue studying my Bachelor of Psychology. I haven't been at uni since 2015, and even then it was a struggle trying to complete a semester due to my condition flaring from the stress, so this semester I'm approaching uni a little differently. I plan on only studying part-time with two units instead of full-time studying with four units.

My condition is very stress related, so easing back into university will be the best thing for me health wise and study wise as it's been a long time since I've been back to the books. I'll be doing my units online and I cannot express how excited I am to finally hit resume on education.

So, my first goal is to actually go back to uni and try to achieve high grades. Something I've learned over these past few years is that I need to pace myself. While I'm not going full speed ahead, I'm trying to have some normality and give 150% of effort as opposed to half of that by taking on too much.

my attempt at trying to be organised

Work

Every day I am working on my fitness, since working with an exercise physiologist I've improved a tremendous amount. I'm going on daily walks and doing multiple exercises and stretches that my ex-phys kindly set up for me.

This is why a goal of mine this year, is to return back to work. My work has been amazingly supportive of everything I've been going through with my health and I cannot wait till I'm back working at a job I love, surrounded by amazing people and getting back into the groove of things.

My lovely ladies: Lauren and Cassie 

Some of the #1207 dream team: Gill, Jess and Lauren

Weight Loss 

As some of you may know, thanks to some of my medications I've gained a lot of weight. While I understand that these medications were there to help, which they are helping, it's been hard accepting how much I've changed from the slim girl I used to be.

Thankfully, the medication that I'm taking is starting to reduce, to the point I will (soon!) no longer need to take them. While I've been reducing, I've also been eating better and so far I have lost 10.5kgs since October 2017. Once I'm off the medication completely, a lot of the weight will just drop off on its own, but, it is so motivating to see the roundness of my cheeks go down, and to see my clothes fitting me better.

Aug 2017

Jan 2018 (taken whilst writing this... procrastination, ha!)

Regular Blog Posts

I can admit that I've posted fairly irregularly this year with not too many blog posts. If I'm being honest, I wasn't exactly sure what I wanted this blog to be for me. I know now that I want to write regular blog posts and I want to continue writing in general. This blog is quite therapeutic for me and helps me be motivated with all the downtime I have, helps me work towards something.

So in 2018, I'm going to continue writing at least 2 blog posts a month. While I know it may not seem like a lot, I am going back to university and I'm not sure how it will affect my free time. Until I figure that out, I feel as if 2 blog posts a month are doable and something I can achieve. Hopefully, with time, I can continue to post more but its all about pacing myself and living within what I can do.

my current blog look

GOODBYE 2017, HELLO 2018

So here it is, what I'm leaving behind in 2017 and what I'm working towards in 2018. For the first time in a long time, this new year truly does feel like a fresh start for me. It is a time where I can put my head down and truly work hard to get to where I need to be. What are you excited for 2018 to bring you and what are you leaving behind in 2017? Let me know in the comments below or contact me through my social media!


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My Ride or Die Makeup Products

Hello, yes, I know it's been a while since my last blog post. I'm still trying to figure out a regular posting schedule, If any of you guys have any recommendations, please let me know. Would you like to see posts once a week? once a fortnight? Let me know!

 

 

Now, I like to think of the ride or die makeup tag as if I only had ONE last opportunity to buy makeup products again, what would I buy? So here is a list of my ride or die makeup products. I'll be listing them in order of how I do my makeup. Now, some products I have unfortunately left behind in England (I know, I'm kicking myself) so please excuse the proper photos for those!

EYEBROWS

MAC Eyebrows in Spiked
RRP: $29

I'm not sure if I've found my ride or die eyebrow product yet, but I can confidently say this is the closest thing to it. This self-sharpening mechanical pencil carves out the brows perfectly and allows you to give your brows a soft or more intense look. Super easy to use and reasonably priced, especially from MAC.

Eyebrow Gel
NYX CONTROL FREAK Eyebrow Gel
RRP: $9

This is a cheap but very effective translucent eyebrow gel, that locks everything down in place and my eyebrows do not budge or move. They look just as good at the end of the day as they do when I first apply them. Something to keep in mind is the wand is very similar to a big mascara wand, while that works for me, it may not work for you. Check it out for yourself above,

BASE: PART 1

Moisturiser: 

MAC Strobe Cream in Gold Lite
RRP: $55

This cream is amazing, its hydrating and also gives your skin a very healthy and dewy glow that is perfect on the skin by itself, or underneath makeup. This also helps any redness I have and a little goes a long way. It has the most beautiful gold reflects.

Primer: 

Too Faced Hangover Primer
RRP: $22-$46

A very hydrating and luxurious primer. Scented with coconut, it leaves my skin smooth and soft, creating the perfect base for foundation to sit wonderfully on top. I'm surprised by how much I actually reach for this primer over my Benefit Porefessional, and it helps my make up stay on all day.

EYES

Primer:

Urban Decay Original Eyeshadow Primer Potion Paraben Free
RRP: $20-$33

I always use a primer for my eyeshadow as I have very oily eyelids, so I usually prime first and then set my eyes with the RCMA No Color Powder as I find that my eyeshadow lasts longer when I set it with powder rather than just using the eyeshadow primer on its own.

Eyeshadow:

Colourpop Pressed Eye Shadows- Custom Palette
RRP:$4-$5 Eyeshadow Singles
RRP: $12-$18 Curated Palette
RRP: $7 - Empty Colourpop Magnetic Palette

What I love about Colourpop is that their products are so incredibly cheap but such high quality. I bought one curated palette and 6 individual shadows. The great thing about Colourpop's curated palette's is that they are magnetic, so it's very easy to take the eyeshadows out of their palette and putting it into my own custom palette with the additional 6 shades. The shadows are pigmented, creamy and so easy to blend, making my own custom palette is wonderful as it's the perfect palette that has everything I need.

Another worthy mention is the Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance that is just as lovely to use, The link takes you to a website that is by far the cheapest way to get the palette. It is $42USD that converts to $53AUD as opposed to buying it at Sephora for $75AUD.

Eyeliner:

Smashbox Always On Gel Eye Liner in Fishnet 
RRP: $26

Image Source: Mecca

Okay, I know what you're thinking, "What the fuck? That's so expensive for eyeliner" to which I'll say, you're totally right. This eyeliner is expensive, but my goodness is it worth every penny. This doesn't move, it is the darkest black and I'll use it to tight-line and will apply it about halfway across my waterline before I use a smudging brush to make it look a little messy. It brings my whole look together and makes my lashes look darker than they are. It doesn't run and it looks just as good at the end of the day than when I first applied it.


Liquid Eyeliner:

Stila Stay All Day Waterproof Eye Liner
RRP: $31

Image Source: Mecca

Another expensive eyeliner, I am aware, although this eyeliner is an absolute necessity if you are living in a country that has humid hot weather. It is the deepest black and does not budge regardless of if it's raining, hailing or shine. It dries down a little shiny and is so easy to use and can make applying simple even for those of you who struggle applying eyeliner.


Mascara:

Benefit Cosmetics Roller Lash in Black
RRP: $42

I have been a lover of Benefit mascara's for the longest time, I think they have some of the best mascaras in the makeup industry. Roller Lash will give my lashes volume, length and a beautiful curl that holds and lasts all day. It doesn't get clumpy and makes my lashes appear bigger than what they are, which is all I can ask for as who has time for false lashes? Not this girl.

BASE: PART 2

Hydrating Mist:

Mario Badescu Spray With Aloe, Herbs, and Rosewater
RRP: $9-$17

I bought the $9 bottle of this over a year ago and only now am I starting to run out. What I love about this spray is that it gives your makeup an instant refresh and makes your skin look MORE like skin. I will usually dot my foundation all over my face, then spray this spray before buffing it in with a Real Techniques buffing brush.

Foundation:

The Ordinary Foundation in 2.1 P Medium Pink Undertones and 2.0 in Light Medium Yellow Undertones With Gold Highlights
RRP: $12.90

This foundation is amazing. The best part? it's $12.90AUD! It applies absolutely beautifully, I dot the foundation around my face. Then I use my Mario Badescu spray and with a beauty blender I blend it all in and it creates the most stunning finish. This in conjunction with the spray and MAC strobe cream it creates the perfect dewy base. This foundation is more on the matte side so using a good hydrating spray or glowing primer will help achieve that dewy finish. So cheap and such high quality, music to my ears.

Concealer:

Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer in Custard
RRP: $44

I'll admit, I purchased this concealer due to all the hype surrounding it, but it lives up to the expectations completely. It's so hydrating and easy to blend, I find it best to use a beauty blender as I can control the coverage the concealer gives me. It's so creamy and makes any blemishes, dark circles and scarring completely disappear. I've already gone through one completely (I hardly ever completely use up products) and have just purchased another. I would be lost without it!

Contour: 

NYX Wonder Stick in Dark
RRP: $19.95

I've only recently purchased this, but GOD DAMN is it amazing. I do have the ABH contour kit but I'd be lying if I said it didn't intimidate me. This is so incredibly easy to use and so so easy to blend out and isn't intimidating to use. It's cheap and its very easy to travel with. I've been looking at contour sticks for a while, from the Smashbox ones to Kim K's and I am very happy and satisfied with my NYX one.

Setting Powder:

RCMA No Colour Powder
RRP: $24

I have had this powder for nearly a year and I've barely made a dent in it. It's so smooth and finely milled, I will use this to bake under my eyes and also set my eye primer. I will then use a thin layer to set my face as I prefer a dewy finish. The only negative about this product is the container it comes in, it's very awkward to use and can be quite messy. For the price, it's absolutely brilliant and will have no flash-back, doesn't alter the appearance of your foundation and has no perfume so it won't irritate those sensitive to smell.

Bronzer:

Too Faced Sweethearts Baked Luminous Glow Bronzer in Sweet Tea
RRP: $44

This bronzer is AMAZING. It is so easy to blend and creates the most beautiful sheen. I usually don't use contour and will normally just go in with bronzer and use it as a two in one. It makes me look sunkissed and glowing, it is so complimentary to my skin tone. I am getting darker (Indian genes, man.) so I will be needing to get another bronzer if anyone has any recommendations for me, I would absolutely love to hear them!

Cream Highlighter:

Benefit Cosmetics Watts Up! Highlighter
RRP: $53

I've only had this highlighter for a month or so, but my goodness am I hooked. It is the perfect "lit from within glow" that looks natural but can also be buildable. There are no chunky glitters, which can honestly put me off a highlighter and has the most lovely shine to it. The highlighter is very easy to blend so it looks more seamless. I do not use the sponge on the end of the highlighter as I find it difficult to use, so I use a beauty blender to soften the edges so it looks more natural. This highlighter is the best everyday highlighter to add to your collection.

Powder Highlighter:

BECCA Champagne Collection Face Palette 
RRP: $89

As you can see, it is well loved and has been dropped a few times :(

This is the highlight I will use when I want a "bam my highlight is about to blind you" glow. I will use this highlight on top of the Benefit Watts Up! highlighter sometimes to really bring a look together. It surprisingly works quite well together and isn't as crazy as you think it may look. I also use the blush in the shade Pamplemousse to bring a little colour to my cheeks. A little bit goes a long way when it comes to this face palette. While it is pricey, it has so many shades and multi-uses, it also has quite a lot of product, you will struggle to hit pan.

LIPS: MY MOST WORN LIPPIES

Nudes: 

MAC Matte Lipstick in Velvet Teddy and Whirl
RRP: $36

L - R: Velvet Teddy, Whirl

I go between these two colours majority of the time, as Velvet Teddy is the most perfect nude while Whirl is that perfect dark nude if I want something with a little more dimension. I do have the corresponding lip liners, although I do find with MAC if you are eating and drinking, the lipstick will come off and that is something to keep in mind.

Setting Spray:

Urban Decay All Nighter Makeup Setting Spray 
RRP: $23-$49

I'm sure this isn't a surprise at all, but this truly one of the best setting sprays I've ever come across. It just sinks everything into place and truly makes your make up last forever. I don't think I'll ever not use Urban Decay setting spray.


These are my make up ride or die products, and while I don't wear make up a lot, these are the products I'll turn to if I do. I don't think I'll ever stop buying makeup, I went from someone who absolutely hated wearing makeup to someone who loves it. Are there any products on this list that you have tried and loved? Or are there products on this list that you haven't tried but now want to? Let me know!

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Acceptance and Moving Forward: Seeking Help to Get Out of This Rut.

Disclaimer: I don't want this to come across as if I am wanting pity when that's the last thing I want. This post more so than anything is for me to face the ugly truth and seek support so I can better myself and move forward with my life with (hopefully!) a clean bill of good health. If no one reads this, so be it, but I'm posting this for me, for me to actually do something about it. Why am I even worrying about a disclaimer? Ugh, hopefully worrying about what other people think of me will be a thing of the past as I move forward.


Acceptance: Accepting the ugly truth whether I want to or not. Because Emily, You just put this out there for everyone to read, so change must happen NOW. Step up. 


I've been struggling.

Wow, feels odd to be pouring these feelings out for the internet to read.

These are really big insecurities of mine, so try not to judge me too harshly maybe?

Mentally, I'm truly struggling.

I've been putting on a brave face, smiling and trying to show strength and honestly, I'm trying to keep it together, but I can't and I accept that now. I know something needs to change.

Don't get me wrong, in the past year I have truly achieved so much in terms of my health... If you had told me a year ago that I would have gone on a 6-week holiday visiting family. If you had told me that on this vacation I would have ridden a camel and walked with crutches for hours on end, I would have laughed at you.

While I know I have achieved a lot, to me, it isn't enough. My self-confidence is low and in all honesty, I'm still trying to move on from last year. Last year put up a lot of mental roadblocks, it changed me as a person. I went out with friends less, I laughed less, I stayed at home day in and day out watching Netflix and doing nothing because I felt so lost. I don't know why I'm using past tense because it's still something I am doing to this day (because who can binge watch 2 seasons of Jane the Virgin in a matter of days?). The only thing that is different now, is that I have accepted this, and I'm finally facing it after trying to avoid it for the longest time.

I'm in a rut, I'm feeling lost and to be completely honest, I don't have much hope. I don't have much hope that I'll be able to return to who I was. I don't have much hope that I can reach my full potential. Not having hope made me also lack motivation. I didn't realise how hard it would be for me to recover from what I went through and I would be lying if I said it wasn't a battle every day. I stopped going out as much and was in bed by 9pm watching youtube and keeping to myself because the idea of socialising was exhausting to me. My mum has been telling me that for the past year I've been in a rut and I can only imagine the sigh of frustration from her that will take place now that I've accepted it and doing something about it. Mother knows best... and my mum is usually right a lot of the time... No one tell her that I said that though.

I accept my current situation for what it is, and I know something needs to change.

I'm currently seeing an exercise physiologist who has given me a number of exercises to do daily while also doing a daily walk. These mental roadblocks have presented itself in lack of motivation. It's not that I don't want to do these exercises, it's the fact that in my mind negative nancy is saying "What is the point? Why are you bothering doing this? You know you will never get back to what you were, You've gained so much weight due to the steroids, you don't even look like yourself let alone actually acting like yourself so why try?". I've accepted that I can't keep living like this because the only person I'm really hurting is me, but where do we go from here?

the supportive group of people in my life

Moving Forward: Asking for help and support as I can't-do this alone- and that's okay.


After talking to my ex phys, we came up with a plan that could help my motivation and help me break free from this groundhog day hell. During the week, while doing my exercises I need to be working towards something, now I know what you're thinking... "DUH Emily. You obviously want to be working towards getting back into a healthy, normal lifestyle..." and while that is ultimately the main goal, I can only achieve that by setting small short-term goals that will work towards the golden ticket at the end.

I was asked what motivated me, what made me want to actually get out of bed and do something and I figured out that exploring my city and doing what I enjoy motivates me. So an example is going to Perth Zoo or going to kings park for a picnic or going to an art gallery, etc. During the week when I do my walking and my exercises, I should be thinking of how this will improve my fitness and strength making my experience at the zoo more enjoyable and so on.

One of the main important factors of this is support, so this is me asking for support. My ex phys said even getting a friend to join on my walks/exercises can make all the difference in terms of my mental health and how I can really see my future, how I can realistically work towards my big goal.

I need support, and this is me asking for it, which isn't exactly easy to do. I still have wonderful and amazingly supportive friends but asking outright for help like this is very difficult for me, but I need to do so if I want to change how I view myself and the steps I will take to get back to working at EB Games and studying Psychology at university. I'm trying, but is what I'm doing at the moment really enough?

In a way by me posting this, this is out there on the internet for everyone to see, so I need to stick to this and actively try to improve myself. I need to make a change, and I'm going to. So, forgetting that I just posted some of my insecurities for everyone to read, can you guys recommend places in Perth that I can explore or even events I can attend? Leave me a comment below or feel free to contact me on my following social media down below!

email (because yes I am a person who regularly uses my email):

emily.dcosta@y7mail.com

snapchat:

emilydcosta

instagram

facebook

Thank you if you're still with me, this post is more like a letter to myself, a call out post if you will. Things need to change and for the first time in a long time, I'm willing to do something about it.

Bye bye to depressed Emily who lacked motivation, letting her condition control her:

Hello to the old Emily who went out, socialised and made the most out of her life. I cannot wait to be you again, soon:






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